Welcome to the madness..

I'm not sad. I'm not depressed. I don't have emotional outbursts anymore. There's nothing for me to vent about and this is why my writing is suffering. I can't seem to write well about happy experiences in my life. I tend to dwell on the dreary and gloomy times, where the emotions are so real and intense that one cannot even begin to describe the feeling. I focus on angst, and build on it to make a cohesive and controversial entry. Sadly, that hasn't happened the past few weeks. I miss writing. I miss having my own sick, sad, twisted world where I rule and what I say is law. I miss listening to emo songs and finding lyrics to best describe my situation. I want to find the chaos back in my life. I believe it gives me direction and heightens my zest for life.

Until then there's nothing more to do that post useless and senseless blubbers. Oh well.

http://paperthinman.blogspot.com -> NEW BLOG!

 

NAPAMAHAL NA AKO DITO. Sorry. Haha. Dun nalang kayo tumingin.  

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Please click it. It's my only chance at having something to do for the next weeks. Thanks.

I never imagined drinking being one way our barkada to throw away life's problems for just a single day, in fact, for a single second. It's just happened, been happening actually. What can I say, it's fun. It allows us to unwind for a few hours. It reminds us that we are kids and that life shouldn't be taken too seriously that we get a little bit too old for our ages. The nice thing about it is that no one actually gets drunk. It's simply a drinking session with no risk involved. That is, if you don't have allergies *WINK*. Jiza once told me that drinking is a social lubricant. It binds people together no matter what. That's probably why there are lots of people in bars. Everyone's looking for something to hold on to. Some are probably looking at people to save them. Others simply just want to let loose and go crazy after an insanely stressful day. No matter what their reasons are, in the end everyone is just looking for something. Life really is about looking and holding on and grasping what is there right in front of you. Now that alcohol has run through my system, I have this to say. I used to hold it against people who drank. Now I don't, for the reason that I too have problems, and I too want to get away from it all. As long as it doesn't ruin your life, drinking is a pretty okay way to forget. It's better than holding it in and letting life get to you, right?

Here's to life, and about taking the shots.

Galing Kay Nin..

the first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly.. in the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names...

1.) When I go to communion, I line up where the priest gives the host even though that line is longer.

2.) My course is AB Psychology but I have a dream to take up a minor in Math. Haha.

3.) When I was a kid, I used to listen to slow, senti songs. Imagine at 6 years old singing On Bended Knee. Hahaha.

4.) My dream is to wake up one morning and decide to fly to Singapore with a dozen friends.

5.) I'm deathly scared of the water.

6.) I'd love to read women's minds. Hahahaha.

I TAG...

1) Nicole Sarmiento
2) Bear Reyes
3) Yumi Mortel
4) Cat Chan
5) Pau Advincula
6) Luis Vega

(90) Things I Have Lived Through
(Put numbers instead of x's [1, 2, 3, 4...].)

[1] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[] I have been to Canada.

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[2] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[3] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[4] I have played ping pong.
[5] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[6] I have seen fireworks.

[7] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ 8] I have almost drowned.
[9] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[10] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[11] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[12] I have stayed up til 2 (and beyond) doing homework/projects. (uh, duh, it’s a lifestyle)

[ ] I have been ice skating.
[ ] I have been rollerblading.
[13] I have fallen flat on my face.


[14] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[15] I have been in a fist fight.
[16] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight. OF COURSE. Who doesn't?
[17] I have watched the power rangers.

[ 18] I attend Church regularly.
[19] I have played truth or dare.
[20] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[21] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[22] I've called someone stupid.
[23] I've been in a verbal argument.
[24] I've cried in school. Over fucking math. Hahaha.
[25] I've played basketball on a team. PE
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team. Intrams
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[26] I've played volleyball on a team. (PE)
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[ ] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.

[ ] I've climbed a rock wall.
[ ] I've lost more than $20
[27] I've called myself an idiot.
[28] I've called someone else an idiot.
[ 29] I've cried myself to sleep.
[30] I've had (or have) pets. I had cats but my mom just put them in a sack and gave them away.
[ ] I've owned a spice girls CD/cassette.
[ ] I've owned a britney spears CD.
[31 ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[ 32] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[33] I have sworn/yelled at someone of authority before.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[ ] I've been on TV. if you ever get to see that michelle branch video filmed in dish nadon kami! hahaha. and mentos barkada back in high school. ROWDY.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[34] I've eaten sushi. (mandatory Japanese dish)
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[ ] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies. DUN DUN DUN
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ 35] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[36] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

[37] I've been called a geek.
[38] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[39] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[  ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[40] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[41] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.

[42] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[ ] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[ ] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[43] I've had/have siblings.
[44] I've been to a rock concert.

[45] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[46] I've been in a play. (Sarhento Dino)
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

[ 47] I've cried in front of my friends.
[  ] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[  ] I've played Halo 2.
[48] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.

[ ] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[49] I've had a fight with someone on AIM/MSN.
[50] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[51] I've had serious conversations on any IM.

[52] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[53] I've been forgiven.
[54] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[ 55] I've cried at a chick flick.
[56] I've watched a lot of action movies. (spy-action are intriguing)
[57] I've screamed at the top of my lungs. kaso shooooort
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.

[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[58] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[59] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[60] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[61] I've been in a car accident. My mom freaked out and shouted at the lady, who in a few years would turn out to be my friend's mom. Haha.

[ ] I've done drugs.
[62] I've been homesick.
[63] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone.
[64] I've gone horseback riding.

[65] I've filled out more than 10 MySpace/LJ surveys.
[66] I've spoken my mind in public.
[67] I've proven someone wrong.
[68] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.

[ ] I've broken an arm.
[69] I've fallen off a swing.
[ ] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight
[ ] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[70] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[71] I've lost my backpack.
[72] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[73] I've known someone who has died.
[74] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[ ] I've done modeling.
[75] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[76] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[77] I've realized how good my life is.
[78] I've counted my blessings.
[79] I've made fun of a classmate.
[ ] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

[80] I've slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[81] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[82] I've lied to someone to their face.
[83] I've told a little white lie.

[ ] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[ ] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[ ] I've been pushed into a pool.
[84] I've been/am in love. 

KAWAWA NAMAN AKO. 84 lang. Boohoo. i need a life. Haha.